Saturday, December 31, 2011

5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

5...


She glanced around the crowd, hoping to spot his face amidst the flashing lights and hundreds of other faces looking for the same thing she was.  These people really seemed to know how to throw a party... Whoever they were.  She wondered how on earth she even ended up going in the first place.  But the thought drifted from her mind as she finally spotted a familiar looking person- the one she had been looking for.


4...


She walked- No, she ran towards him.  Really, he's the only reason she went to this bloody party.  And she wasn't leaving until she got what she came for.  She pushed through the sea of bodies and reached out, grabbing his arm and abruptly turning him towards herself.


3... 


"D- What are you doing here?" he asked breathlessly, obviously startled by her sudden appearance.  She stood there gripping his forearms, unable to say much.  She could slowly feel her courage dwindling, but nothing could stop her.  She had to do this.


2...


Lights were flashing, leaving her barely able to see his face.  At this point she couldn't really hear anything either, other than her own pounding heart.  One second left until this vital moment.


1...


She gathered up all the courage she could possibly find and leaned forward, gradually closing the gap between them.  He wore an expression of surprise, but he didn't seem to be pushing her away.  Regardless, she was willing to face the consequences afterwards.  At this point, nothing was going to stop her.
The start of the new year was signalled by the obnoxious screaming and the hundreds of hands grasping for a kiss to welcome the new year.  She leaned forward, capturing his lips in a gentle kiss.  Her grip loosened from his arms, allowing him to wrap his around her waist, pulling her slightly closer to him and deepening the kiss.
As the activity surrounding the two began to die down, they parted.  She looked up into his eyes, slightly afraid of what was to be expected after such rushed actions.  But instead, she saw the unexpected.
"Happy new years," he said quietly, and he pulled her lips back to his.


What a wonderful start to 2012. 


(for Matty)

It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life (a new year)... And I'm feeling good.

As of midnight tonight, 2011 will be over. Finished. *poof* gone like the wind.  Let's recap on everything that happened and I will cry about it and make really long blog posts. 


1.  Harry Potter "ended".  I use quotations because really, it will never end.  But the movie was finished, just like that.  Seven books, eight movies, and a majority of my life. On July 15th, I saw Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow Part II, and it was a SUPER big deal.  I also re-read the series twice and blah blah blah, quite a Harry Potter year. 


2.  THE INTERNET HAPPENED.  I've had Twitter since the end of 2010, but this year I was like "oh goodness look at all these very nice people".  And they've been part of my entire year, and it has been absolutely fantastic.  I love everyone I've spoken to, and speak to now.  Their hearts are huge, and their love for porn- I mean fanfiction- is sometimes bigger.  


3.  I MET STARKID!! SPACE Tour was a wonderful experience this November 6th, 2011.  The only thing that was better than meeting the actual Starkids and watching them perform live would be meeting these friends that I will forever love dearly.  (handhugs)


4.  I had.  One of the greatest.  Summers.  Ever.  You know why?  Nearly every day of it was spent with my best friend.  Nicolette.  I haven't felt close with her in a while, and this year... BAM.  It was like we were young again, spending every day together and never getting tired of each other.  We've been best friends for 9 whole years (Or it will be on the 7th of January), and I feel like I've finally gotten her back. She's one of the greatest people on the ENTIRE planet, and I feel extremely lucky to have her as my best friend.  Forever graphing those schizoids.  


5.  This summer, I also started watching Doctor Who.  And my GOD it was one of the greatest things to happen to me.  I mean.  This show.  I can't even.  I OWE ALL OF THIS MAINLY TO EMMA AND KIRSTYN BECAUSE THEY ARE THE REASONS I AM WATCHING IT TODAY.  They never stopped talking about it and I finally decided I needed to see what was so great about this show.  I will never regret that decision, even when I lack sleep from staying up all night to watch it.  


6.  I also discovered Sherlock.  As if my love for Sherlock Holmes couldn't get any greater, IT DID (also thank the stars for Sarah and her emails bless her).  I love all 3 episodes of the show and Mark Gatiss and Steven Moffat and their ability to make such an incredibly gay show.  


7.  On September 14, 2011.  I gained a best friend.  Barely 100 days later, just.  I don't really know what to say.  I'm honestly at a total loss of words to say about Matty.  It's different because I haven't had 8 or 9 years to find the right words to describe this particular person. Give me time, and I will find the right words.  But right now, I just can't.  Other than you're brilliant.  Absolutely brilliant.  You're like the Koschei to my Theta, minus all the passionate gay sex.  


8.  I travelled to Vancouver with my school's music program.  It was one of the most beautiful places I've ever been to, with the water and mountains.  The memories made there are ones I will never forget.  No matter what.  And I would give almost anything to be back again, among the trees that tower high above your head and look down on you like gods from the sky.  


9.  And finally.  Finally, I have music.  Violin, one of the most important things in my life.  Sure, the beginning of this year was difficult.  My violin teacher went and ditched me, abandoned me, after 6 years.  Then, in October/November, I discover that all I had was 6 years of some of the worst instruction ever.  
But now, none of that matters.  It doesn't.  Because I have a proper teacher.  A phenomenal teacher.  Who doesn't know how much she means to me, how much she has changed me.  How she has saved me.  Thanks to her, I know what I'm doing.  Hell, I can finally hold my violin properly.  I know what I'm doing (to a point).  I finally have a shred of self confidence that will eventually grow into something larger.  
I made it into PEEL HONOUR STRINGS.  FIRST. VIOLIN.  Me.  First violin.  This is something I would never have expected to happen a mere few months ago.  And it's all real. 


(Also Natalie calls me her personal Maureen Johnson and I adore Maureen and she brightens my life so REALLY that is a pretty big deal fkdjhsajk)


Sure, this year was pretty difficult.  My Zio having a stroke.  My Nonna having a heart attack and a quad bypass surgery.  Having to go through Baldo's one year anniversary of his passing.  Dealing with all that I faced, and still face, at home.  Losing friends.  Being so very alone in the world.  
But the good things outweigh the bad.  And in the end, that's all that really matters.  Because in the future, you're going to want to look back and remember all the good things that happened in 2011.  


I don't really know how to end this, so I'll leave you with a piece of advice:


"Always take a banana to a party, Rose: Bananas are good!"

Thursday, December 29, 2011

You know those really big orange blocky things that block you?

They're so massive they could block a space ship or something.
I have one of those in my head now, it's so big it will take me forever to eat through.  I have a book FULL of things I've written (that will never be shared with anyone), and now I can't even write 2 sentences without thinking "OH DEATH YOU HAVE FINALLY COME FOR ME I HATE YOU GIVE ME WORDS STOP KILLING THE WORDS" or something like that.
I'm also feeling quite sick, though that isn't new.  I've been sick for months, one thing after another.  It has become quite a vicious thing.


I thought my best friend died today, that was awfully frightening.  But he isn't dead, he's quite alive.


Goodness, I've been reading this TERRIFIC fic.  It's Doctor/Master, called 'New Dawn Fades' by Omphalos on Livejournal (I think that's how it's spelt, so sorry).  Anyways, I'm enjoying it VERY much, I'm on part 7 out of 10, sad face.
I don't want it to end, but I also want to see how he/she will end it.  Such terrific writing, such inspiration. :)


Anyways, writers block.
Not a fan... I have a pun for this, a visual one.  I don't want to post it because of reasons.  Mainly because I'm quite tired and that took a lot of effort. 

Well, when I finally find the words and write this silly thing, I'll be sure to post it HERE. Safe from anyone (because really, no one reads this silly little blog).  

I will now sign the end of this entry:
fkjdshajkfhdsjakfhdsjkah
(Not really though, because why on earth would I do such a thing)

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

So,

Yesterday, I started watching Sherlock.  And GOODNESS, MY HEART. IT CAN'T HANDLE THIS. AT ALL. It's such a fantastic show and the two of them... There are no words. NONE.


I just I CAN'T GO ON.


I'm getting sick, boo. :( Which means I should probably go to sleep, instead of blog and tweet and laugh at everything.  Yes... I'll just go to bed.... AND READ FIC YEAH YEAH I'M NOT DEFINED BY BOUNDARIES THEY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.


I clearly don't have much to say right now.  I'm on Winter break, and I haven't really left the house in a few days... Would you call this stir crazy?  Or do I just naturally ooze crazy.  Sometimes it leaks out when we're in the grocery store.  My mum isn't too fond of this at all.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry Belated Christmas :")

I (kind of) love Christmas :)
It's just such a marvellous time, full of spirit and laughter and reasons to be happy.
The snow falls (not this year though), children sing (me, quite loudly) and there are trees and decorations and WONDERFUL food.
Oh goodness I love Christmas.
And I manage to hate it at the same time.


I'm thinking of writing more FanFiction. The one I wrote has FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFTY SEVEN hits. 457! Goodness, that is a LOT.  Hm, maybe I'll write some Harry Potter fic... That'd be fun.
But then again, I have violin to practice, seminars to prepare, people to kill...  I'd really love to find the time. :)


I read Looking For Alaska, by John Green... Oh. My. GOD was that a book. Or was it another twisted dream. Usually the character death is in the end, or sometimes the beginning.. but BAM right in the middle of the book!! And I adored her character, I wanted her and Pudge to marry and have beautiful children and and and oh well. :( Still, the book was fantastic, and I'm looking forward to finally reading more now that this semester is ending, and next semester is quite calm and not too demanding. I mean, I have music. And spare. And some other classes. Easy peasy. :)


I gave my best friend some Harry Potter books for Christmas this year, it filled me with SO much joy, I can't even explain it. It felt like I was handing over magic... Oh wait, I was. Those books have changed me, and shaped the person that I am today.  They also introduced me to new friends, ones that I will love forever and ever.  Until they turn rude, or hate me.


I'm off to watch The Little Mermaid, and lie around enjoying my 2 weeks of Winter break.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Whoops

Well I have NOT had a good week wah :(
I lost 5 lbs from lack of appetite and I probably burned off weight from crying.
You know, the usual.
I'm eating now, and I have had SUCH a good night!!
I'm starting my French novel, that'll be fun! Hopefully it's nothing like the last one... (Terminus Cauchemar NEVER AGAIN COOL)

Happy Thanksgiving to Americans!!!!!!!! And I have an audition to practice, and homework to do, and reading and studying and jazz to listen to!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

OUCH

The person that was once my best friend, I think hates me now. Or at least dislikes me. Ouch.... Dude ouch... 


Also, no violin tonight. HEY CRAMPS. HEY YOU. RUINING MY WEEK. GET OUT. 
But I can't really seem to do anything about it without taking my life. And I definitely do not want to do that. Nope, not at all.  


I worry about my best friend so much, it's unhealthy. But, worrying!! It just doesn't stop!! 
Even the librarian agreed with me... About something...


Also, I cried today... Probably almost 10 times... That's pathetic. 


Oh well. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

VIOLIN

I HAVE A CARBON FIBRE BOW
I HAVE
A CARBON
FIBRE
BOW.

dkajfhdksjahfjdslahfkdjslahfjdslahfkdsjalhfdjsl :D :D :D !!!!!!!
Translation: It's very light, and makes my violin ring. It almost grabs the string and plays it for me. The sound is rich, alive, full, and just all around magical. It makes me extremely happy, so I start flailing on my keyboard and disregard all of my important school work to practice all night.
Except right now I'm on the computer.
So I just practice and write.  Procrastination at its finest.

Although my violin lesson was cancelled, as well as the volunteering I was going to do this afternoon, I still had a lovely day! Maybe I even did okay on my math test, who knows!!
I hope everyone is having a lovely day as well! :)

Oops...

Almost a year has gone by since I updated my blog...
Blame Tumblr.

Well, things have changed! I got my best friend back, Nicolette. Things.. happened and we didn't speak as often as we did when we were little.  Now, it's as though we're 9 years old again.  Around 7 years have passed since January 7, 2003.  Oh god I'm going to cry...
I also made another, new friend. A new best friend. His name is Matty, and he's one of the most wonderful things to ever have walked into my life. :')
NOT EVEN KIDDING. NO OVER EXAGGERATION HERE.
Really though, so talented and sweet and precious and my best friend. :) This makes me extremely happy.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

tally ho.

this topic, is important.
TALLY HO IS AMAZING. it's this music trip at my school, where the Intermediate Wind Ensemble (iwe) goes up north for 3 days. it is so so so much fun, except for the hours and hours of music. which is just painful. we stay in these adorable cabins with friends, and stay up all night, wherever we want. and it's soon!!
and then, there is tiny talent time at tally ho. basically, a talent show.
a friend of mine, arranged a piece for a bunch of us to perform. you'd think, it'd be fair, with the melody. butno. this dear trumpet player, always seems to have it. along with an 8 measure solo.
HM, how did that happen?
I could bitch about this for HOURS. but I won't. already do enough of that with the Bari player LOLOL HAHAHA.
I know I should not be complaining, I have the melody with her in some spots. but I don't think that's fair either, everyone else should have it too. jussayin.

hehe, "G minor"
just stfu.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

priorities.

I've got homework, and music, and cleaning... and I want to sit around and do nothing. that's what I did yesterday, I'm so bad. ;)

Homework is rawr. I have to read the silliest French books ever, Le Petit Prince, and Terminus Cauchemar. SHOOT ME NOW. TC is so damn creepy, about the crazy 70 year old man in love with a 16 year old girl, and he thinks he's Hitler...
Petit Prince, is just wow. so wow. ;) the little kid who leaves his planet to get away from the talking flower, and bonds with the fox and is killed by a magical snake.
then I have science, I hate physics. such a pain in the ass...

MUSIC is more important than anything though. I unfortunately have to find a new teacher. because my teacher (she taught me for almost 6 years) suddenly turned into the biggest bitch ever, and doesn't want to teach me anymore. I'd say why.. but there are certain people who can stumble across this blog and read it. and I'd rather they didn't, at least not now. so now, I have to find a new one. she was such a good teacher, we were so close. it kills me to have to now search for a new one. but I have to, and fast. it has been so long since I have had a lesson, not good at all.

so woo today, time to get out of bed and just start it already!

ttfn, <3

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2011.

"I am going to change who I am in the New Year"
HAno.  That's a load of BS.
What makes you think that just because it's a different year, you're gonna just stop being a bitch?  Don't think so!  You could have changed 2 weeks ago, when you made the damn resolution.  Why did you have to wait?  YOU DIDN'T.
People don't just randomly change because it's a new year, that's so dumb.
And this is why I hate New Years Resolutions.

Another Thing: 
Why do we count down? Get all excited for "OMG 2011"?  It's just a new year.  Like whoo, you get a new calendar.  Big Deal.

All this commotion over the New Year just.. confuses me.  I don't get it.

DKJFHGKJLSERHJLKDFHGSDF. WTF.

Just wanted to talk about. 
This book.
It's Terminus Cauchemar. NIGHTMARE.  It's French. 
In my experience with French books, I've come to a conclusion that.. The French are SO EFFED. 
WHO WRITES A BOOK, about a 16 year old girl.  Who runs away from home, and ends up living with this guy who is over FIFTY YEARS OLD. Just.. no.  Don't. 
So he's like, crazy.  And one day after living at his house, with his large, mute chef named M'Ling (someone wanna tell me how you pronounce that? Who even names their kid M'Ling...) who chased her around like some lunatic.  SHE FINALLY REALIZES THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE GUY.  Like come on.  The guy works in a science lab, and experiments on monkeys and cats.  WTF. 
Oh and it gets better.  He's got this whole Concentration Camp set up.  Where he offers a new life for delinquent children.  Here they are experimented on in a way, and he makes them work to be athletic and strong, and they do all sorts of crazy sports shit.  And when she's visiting this place, they open a door and she smells what? Uh, something like MUSTARD GAS.  Where they kill the kids, obviously! KJFDHKJHESLJHFDJS OMG SOME MESSED UP BS RIGHT THERE. 
When she tries to escape this guys house, he sets VICIOUS DOGS ON HER.  She's a prisoner now.  Isn't that just dandy.  Like sunshine and rainbows and puppies and stuff.  NO. 


I just hate this book.  It's going to scar me for the rest of my life...


ttfn.