Sometimes I feel incredibly bad because of how negligent I have been towards my friends lately. 
I don't do it on purpose, I just... Can't. 


I feel like there's this empty pit, and no matter what I do I can't seem to fill it.  
I don't know why I feel like this.
I'm just... Not happy.  
I want to be good, social, joyful.  But lately I'm just so sick of pretending. 


Not feeling well today.